1/1/11

Happy New Year! It's officially 2011..craaazy! I'm happy to leave some of the bad memories behind from 2010...but, I can't wait to bring some of my hopes and dreams alive in 2011. Eleven is my favorite number, so it has to be my year---right?

Some of the things I want to accomplish/work towards this year are:
1) Don't sweat the small stuff-- Sometimes I over worry and stress way too much about small things that I don't really have control over.

2) Re-gain my "socialness"-- I have had a few hard spots in my life that have left me in some sort of rut... I really want to work on not being so anxious and "on guard" with my emotions and independence---I don't like being vulnerable anymore, and it's almost like if I avoid being social, then I eliminate the opportunity to become vulnerable--but, I don't think that is the best thing.

3) Bring back my self-confidence-- As always, I'd love to loose weight and eat healthier this year.. but I'm not just talking about that. With some of the things I've been through, I've unfortunately lost some of my confidence--and I'd love to start trying to gain that back. Along with the confidence topic, I really really wish I didn't cut my hair--as you all know...so I want to start growing that out as well.
3.5) Along with the confidence, I'll set a side note of eating out less often, exercising more even if it's on my wii (and with Annie!), and choosing healthier meals when at home.

4) Stay true to myself-- This pretty much explains itself..

5) Be happy. Smile often. Giggle lots. :)

I'm sure I have many more, but that is what I can think of right now. Today I ran into one of the people who truly killed so much of my confidence, trust, and respect for relationships---saw him at Walmart in passing, he was with his "ex". I think he saw me, but pretended he didn't--or maybe he didn't at all. Either way, it was a bit of a stab to the chest when I saw them. Out of all the places to be, why the Walmart I was at, at that moment? Well, it is what it is--it caught me off guard and set my my mood a little lower than I started my day with... Although it was frustrating and annoying to see them together, on the other side of the spectrum it gives me the opportunity to reflect on how I have grown and just how better off I am without him. Honestly, that relationship really influenced the way I am today--a stronger, wiser, more observant individual. He didn't deserve me at ALL.. but I walked away with more experiences to help me throughout my life. And even though this is all true, it still sucked--lol. Oh well!

Happy New Year! :D