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Thursday, January 20, 2011

My last day of being 24!

It's crazy to think that tomorrow I'll be 25-- it always seemed so, "old" to me. 25?! It was almost ancient--although I liked to fantasize about being such an age, it never seemed so realistic or even really imaginable. It's so amazing looking back at where you've been, and thinking to yourself that things just aren't what they are assumed to be sometimes.
When I was turning 18 years old, if you were to ask me where I thought I'd be when I was turning 25, it wouldn't have many similarities regarding the reality of where I'm at today. Back then, I had pondered the idea of what "real life" pertained to, and listening to all of the older adults in my life--I thought I had it all figured out, or, atleast to a certain extent. I had assumed life would have been a path created before me as I walked across, sometimes stumbling to find more bricks, or having to jump over hollow places altogether. I thought I had understood, and been prepared, for the struggles and trials that were to be placed before me---but looking back, I might have been excited to welcome the difficulties but not nearly as prepared to take them on. Yet, how can one truly prepare for life? The only preparation in life is to just experience it. Break a heart, have yours broken...fall in debt, carry the weight of monthly bills on your shoulder...find a true friend, and be a true friend...although one might assume they know the realities of it all, only life helps you understand what it truly takes to live.
It's amazing to think about how in just 7 years, life has been twisted and rearranged in so many ways. I mean, I did see creating myself through education in my future..and I did see my independence grow, but it wasn't visioned as it is being played out today. Don't get me wrong, I am COMPLETELY grateful and thankful for everything that has led me up to this point in life--as, if I didn't go through it all, I wouldn't be me.
I'm so happy I am able to say I am (or well, will be) 25 years old, with no children, attending college for my second degree, applied to graduate school, and am working my butt off with two jobs in order for me to do so. It is a very rewarding feeling, especially when people seemed to always give you the stereotype of getting pregnant at a young age and being stuck in that reality, never being able to grow or develop into something completely different. I can't even explain to you how happy I am to not be one of those "statistics"that seemed to haunt me as if I had no other choice before.. I don't know. I'm part of the minority in a sense, in my opinion anyway when I look around in my own personal life--and I'm glad to say that this minority is probably one of the most beneficial ones. :)
Wow, I'm sure babbling on, haha--if you're still here, I'm impressed. I guess, just reflecting on everything (as I do every birthday), I am really proud to say I am who I am, and I've been where I've been. And I thank you all for having a part in it all, even if it just seems like a small part.
I will never be 24 again for the rest of my life. Craaaaazy! I'm getting old. :)
Here's to being proud, hopeful, excited, and young--- ;)
'til next time!

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