A bunch of random thoughts.

I wonder...

How life sometimes seems to circle around me as I stand still?

How I don't regret some of the most painful times in my life?

Why do I look at people, who are my age, and sometimes feel like I'm not as "old" as them..while others I look at and feel I'm not as "young"?

How life can change in what seems like an instant, although, it was in fact more of a gradual thing?

Will I ever get what "I want"? Do I even know what that is? And if I do, am I afraid of actually getting it? Sometimes the repetition of something so expected is so comfortable, that I tend to become fearful of stepping out of that comfort zone.. this can't be a good thing. It's almost like I'm afraid to grow? Or is this just me being more cautious because of previous experiences I've had?

Why does chocolate taste so dang good? I mean really--what is it about it that I crave? Geez.

Why is it easier to gain weight than it is to loose it? That's not very fair..

Am I really graduating this semester? It seems surreal to me--I don't want to be a grown up. Yet, I think maybe I already am? Or am I? Is this where my life truly begins..or is it just a continuation of when it already began? When does a life begin?

Why is it easier to read a book when you're not expected to for a class?

Why does sunshine make such a difference? I love sunshine, it makes me happy.. the warmth, it's just--a great feeling. But why would temperature and amount of sunlight make a difference with internal emotions? Crazy!

Will I ever stop biting my nails!? Ugh! It's frustrating..

Where will I be in five years? Heck, what about two years? It's crazy to reflect back on where I've been, where I've wanted to be, and where I thought I'd be.. oh how things can change.

These are just a few of the random questions I have right now. Maybe I'll expand on some of these ideas later, as some really reflect some internal confusion I'm having right now. I just wanted to blurt some of it all out before I forget it all. :D